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2018, New Year



New Years Resolution: Learn to never feel the need to have a resolution again.  Just be happy with your imperfect self.

This is, in my humble opinion, the one thing people always mean to say, but can never bring themselves to do.  It's the main goal, isn't it? Be happy with who you are?

Here I am, one month into the new year, and this is only my first blog entry when I thought I should be on my third or fourth.  But you know what? I'm okay with that.

I'm okay with that because up until this point in my life, I have had nothing but schedules, and although those can really help you when you're busy, I am tired of them controlling me.  But I shouldn't say that they controlled me.

That would be incorrect.  What I should say is that I am tired of letting myself be defined by the schedules I make and force myself to keep.  I should accept the point that I need some flexibility.

2017 marks my first New Years Resolution that I held onto all year long: no thrift shopping.

My boyfriend and I have just passed our one year mark and it has not passed without its fair share of fights.

2018 is a year that I am going to define for myself in terms of acceptance and healing.

Come the 16th of next month I will be one year clean from cigarettes.  Now isn't that something to celebrate?

That is what I mean by imperfect.  And you know what?  I love it.

So hello 2018.  No resolution.  No fancy word filled up with guilt if I can't stay motivated. None of that for me this year.

Just love.

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